Crossing Jhordan's River (Lift Every Voice) by Kendra Norman-Bellamy

Jhordan was only a boy when he witnessed his mother’s suicide. At first, the pain of his loss weighed on him, but the pain soon festered into a deep-seated mistrust of women. Failed relationships abound, and now his marriage to Kelli has brought him to a crossroad. His cold heart may finally chase Kelli into the arms of another man.